What does that really look like? I’m always fascinated by the way life has it’s twists and turns. There are constant routines that play out, then suddenly things happen out of nowhere without warning that twist you into a pretzel mentally emotionally or both (hopefully not physically). So while you’re gasping for emotional air, the thought may come up, “Where’s God in all of this?”
I can remember back in the IC days I would simply have to brace myself and family with the sound biblical principles that I had studiously fortified myself with. Quoting verses, bordering on a reverse kind of superstition, sort of like whistling while walking through a cemetery so the spooks wouldn’t get you. That was fine on the outside, but inside I would just sigh and wonder “Where are you God?”. What else could I do since I never had a relationship with him?
That’s all changed now is an understatement. What I never imagined in a hundred Sundays now happens on a regular basis with a simplicity that makes me just smile at times. I not only have a relationship with him, he’s IN the relationship. He’s what makes it happen, I just get to be a part of it on a regular moment by moment basis. He’s in the twists and turns. It doesn’t mean that I don’t get bent sometimes, but he’s right there interacting with me. That’s what brings confidence to my soul, that’s what confidence in God looks like to me.